I don't even know what the fuck I want anymore. I tried replacing you, only to realize it was you that I wanted in the end. And now I'm debating if I even want to go back to you. I don't even know if I want to. How am I supposed to kiss you anymore? I'm reminded of the day you hurt me, everytime you look into my eyes. I just see sadness. Emptiness. I see myself. I just want to fast foward everything to a time where I am happy again. I'm so confused at myself right now. Everything is just so broken.
I don’t understand how I’m even awake right now. I have to be up at USF all day for orientation and I’m working outback all night. I’m so sleepy, I don’t know how I’ll manage but I always do. I need some energy and a self driving car so I can take a nap on the way up there.